Well it is no big shocker that I am over weight! I have been for years! This last week I had a bit of a scare that may have freaked me out a ton!! It started Thursday night, my back was killing me and no matter how I sat, laid, stood I could not get comfortable. On Friday morning I could barely move and the pain was out of control. So I called the doctor, which it must be bad..I never go to the doctor! While with the doctor I broke down crying saying I knew it was so bad cuz i was over weight. I just kept thinking that I would need surgery and all the fun stuff that comes along with that. Well she did some tests and told me she thinks I just strained it and it is more than likely more painful cuz of my weight. She told me in the next few days we will know if I need a MRI...if it gets better just a strain, if it gets worse either a spinal cord injury or herniated disc....Oh dear. Well thank goodness on Sunday I took my last major pain med in the morning and have only taken Ibuprofen since then. I have been walking and doing the exercises that she told me to do. It looks and feels like a strain. Hallelujah...I can breathe a little easier..
Now comes to the support part...I have always tried to lose weight on my own or keep it all a secret. I know that this is something I have to do for me and only me, but I do need some serious support and encouragement. This will not be an easy road ahead of me cuz I have a super long way to go and it can be very overwhelming. I had some success a few years ago and was able to concur so many obstacles and a lot of my success came from much needed support and love. When things get rough I seem to give up, so maybe if I include those who I love so much maybe I will be able to keep trucking forward even if I have a set back cuz we all know in life we have set backs and it is how we bounce back from them that make the difference. I know that I will not be perfect, but I know that I can do this and as long as I keep that tude...it can happen. RIGHT!!!So in 2008 I ran my first 5k..I did walk some..but that is besides the point. I had started the road to my new life and had a great year...Then 2009 hit and I threw in the towel and gained everything and then some back...2008 was my year..probably the happiest I have been in a long time. Well I can't live in the past, but I can look forward to the future..Here's to finding That girl above and making 2012 the best year ever!!!